Life is more than this

Liberation

2011-01-27T14:17:00.002+08:00

Had a talk with my leader, and its really a divine one, i feel much liberated after that, I really thank God for her.

Try as I might, trying to sweep things under carpet, however it comes back to haunt me now and then. It seems I have never overcome it at all, it just lie inside the deepest corner of my heart, waiting to resurface. I though i did overcome it, but how wrong i am!

What she said really make sense to me, if I have somethings that are not resolved, it is better me to resolve it as soon as possible. Although we might 'forget' about it, it will resurface again and haunt us once more, like a curse.

Jesus came to this world so that He can break us away from this chain of the world, to grant us to freedom. If we are still stubborn in our own ways, it is hard for God to transform us, and even liberate us.

Decisions and Priority

2010-09-22T01:42:00.002+08:00

kop this from Shawn's blog, which speaks to me alot

"Your statutes are my heritage forever
My heart is set on keeping Your decrees
Please still my anxious urge toward rebellion
Let love keep my will upon its knees"

For those who dont know, I have join student council as my cca this year. It is quite tough at the moment because I have alot of things to settle, partly because my team is organising a bazaar at the end of the month. I do face alot of struggles about making the right decision and prioritize my work, study, ministry and src. Still struggling, but I hope thru this experience, I can learn and grow from there...

with my eyes i can only see that far
with my heart, it is very deceitful
keep me in check, of my attitudes and motives
Because there is no point hiding from You
You graciously lead the humble to goodness
And I would gladly bow down to cast away my pride

Confliction

2010-06-22T02:47:00.002+08:00

Do u ever have the feeling?
You are glad its over
at the same time u are sad its gone
life is an irony isn't it?
but come on we aren't machines after all
tats what being humans is all about

Faith to believe

2010-06-17T13:18:00.003+08:00

Here in my Life- Hillsong United

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At Your word Lord, I’ll receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failing surely would have drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failing surely would have drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life!

even as situations are not going to my life, i want to rmb this that Jesus will pull me thru despite all circumstances. My future, my dreams and plan I want to commit into ur hands Lord. maybe now i cant see it, but i hope Lord u can help me see it, ur plans for me for my tertiary education.

NS brothers gathering

2010-06-09T21:05:00.002+08:00

Past few days has been pretty relax for me, because I am currently unemployed =P However it is becox im tat free therefore i have the time to spend with some of the NS brothers today at minds cafe. Jon Lwee, Jie Xun, Bruce,Linus,Andy and Eugence GOH(finally came back frm europe). It feels nostalgia to see them all again, especially jie xun and bruce since I haven talk to them much ever since I transferred over to the uni side =x

Through out, I really enjoy spending time with them-although the game we played are not tat fun at times =.=", its the ppl tat make it more fun. The attributes games we played especially, the objectives is pretty lame, because we just have to snatch the right card then we earn points. If not for using others as the topic, we wouldn't have tat much fun self entertaining ourselves =p haha but i really have fun playing shadow hunters though, a rpg board games. Especially the second game, where i acidentaly killed of Andy, my teammate, LOL in the end it became 3 against me alone, cui.

In the end, its really this fellowship that makes today enjoyable. To see one another doing well, walking right with God =) In the next few months, we be stepping on different journey, we might not have the chance to see each other for weeks. But I strongly believe that we will see each other again at the end of this race, together.

SAT

2009-07-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

K, I have already registered myself for SAT papers. My test date is 7 Nov, still have ard 3 mths plus to study. It may be enough to help me into a uni place but it is the path where i am more confident in doing. Retaking my A levels is seriously not a solution ever since from the start, because I highly doubted myself to study on my own. Even last time in JC, where it is a conducive environment to study i didn't do well, it will be very hard for me to did better than the last time...

I do regret for not focusing on my studies in my JC years and addicted to playing computer games....

Alright no time to cry over spoil milk, learn from mistakes and move on Shem...

Night Cycling

2009-06-14T20:49:00.002+08:00

Thank goodness i am able to complete the nite cycling ytd!! The fact tat I have only learnt how to cycle last week makes this more amazing lol. The cycling route itself is ok, but alot of upslopes and downslopes. The feeling of wind gushing down on ur body is really enjoyable haha! I really wanna thx darryl and yong sheng and gavin for accompanying me behind, cox i not used to travelling at super high speed. Most of the time I will be lagging behind while the 3 of them pushes me onwards.

We cycled from around 1am till 730am. Tengah airbase to home team academy, to Gombak airbase, to Nee Soon camp, to Paya Lebar Airbase and finally to East Coast park to return our bikes. At each camp, we pray for it and the cg, praying tat God will work thru them greatly in thier respective camps.

By the time we reach the ending point, i was so tired tat i dun really feel like going home, but just sleep at east coast park LOL. My whole legs feel like jelly, cant even walk straight la! HAha but it is really a experience i will never forget! I will post more photos after i get them =)

And happy belated birthday timothy! Hope u like the present i gave u! haha

2009-06-02T23:03:00.002+08:00

YESssss!!! I know how to cycle liao!! Haha after a 2 days of training i can finally get the grasp of cycling. Although still not very stable, it is a great improvement compared to last sunday- it was totally dreadful! Now at least i can cycle straight, still have a bit of problems in turning though..
I have met my mid term goal too!

¹² "Even now," declares the LORD,
"return to me with all your heart,
with fasting and weeping and mourning."

¹³ Rend your heart
and not your garments.
Return to the LORD your God,
for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
and he relents from sending calamity.

¹⁴ Who knows? He may turn and have pity
and leave behind a blessing—
grain offerings and drink offerings
for the LORD your God.

¹⁵ Blow the trumpet in Zion,
declare a holy fast,
call a sacred assembly.

¹⁶ Gather the people,
consecrate the assembly;
bring together the elders,
gather the children,
those nursing at the breast.
Let the bridegroom leave his room
and the bride her chamber.

¹⁷ Let the priests, who minister before the LORD,
weep between the temple porch and the altar.
Let them say, "Spare your people, O LORD.
Do not make your inheritance an object of scorn,
a byword among the nations.
Why should they say among the peoples,
'Where is their God?' "

God really spoke to me this week in this verse Joel 2:12-17, to repent and to submit to Him. I admit tat there are some areas of my life not live biblically and can be a stumbling block to ppl. This verse is like shouting at me telling me to repent now not later. Pastor Michael gave a good analogy today: He was asking 2 person to use a bat to beat him. A said tat he cannot do it because he is afraid of going to jail. However B said tat he cannot do it, because he love him. Its the 2 different mindset but ultimately thier actions are righteous. Its like repentance, would u repent because u love Jesus and Love His ppl? Or would u repent because u scared of the consequences? Either motivation is good but let Love be ur motivation instead of fear!

Break!!

2009-03-26T14:18:00.003+08:00

Wahahaha this week is gonna be more block leaves!!! Finally after so long!!! The past 2 mths has been quite hectic though in camp. Alot of happenings also good and bad, but alright God really brought me thru =)

Now for my block leaves, i seriously dun have any plans though... Haha if theres no plans guess i just stay at home, suft net watch anime lol. Just addicted to reading Bleach manga, after reading one chapter, I feel like reading the next chapter again..

Ok aside from doing some random things, i be meeting some of my sheep also who stayed out. Yea I just become a shepherd so i need time to get to know them better. Yup, jiayou to me cox its a another phase of my Spiritual life. Its been quite some time since i last took care of ppl le, by God's grace, i hope this time round i can be a better shepherd yea.

Man Utd reigns

2009-03-06T21:32:00.005+08:00

Glory to Manchester United who defeat Spurs by penalties with a score of 4-1!!!!

This season is indeed one of the best season Man Utd has have so far. They are in it for a quintuple, a feat which was not done by any clubs so far. Now the league cup and club world cup is down, whats left is FA cup, Champions League and last but not least, English Premier League. Its definitely not going to be easy but hey this season the squad has strength in depth too. No longer they need to rely solely on the first team players to delivers, the recent results from league proves that the youngsters are reliable replacements. Yea strive on Man Utd!

Water Baptism

2009-03-01T20:53:00.002+08:00

On the 1st March 2009, Shem has died and the new Shem has rose again!

For all u guys information, no im not talking nonsense nor am i crazy. I have 'died' today and rose from my watery grave. Yup, i was water baptized today!

Personally its really a big decision to make in my life! Water baptism signifies that u are willing to follow Jesus till the very end and I having doubts whether i can do that though. After much considerations, yea i make this choice to go for it.

In the water, time seems to stop. I feel as if i been inside for a long time even though its only been a short while. I still rem the prophecy one of the facilitator gave me, to prepare for more challenges ahead because God wants to mold me and build up my character. Like pure gold which do not scare of fire, God will tests me so as to build me up and prune me. ( i really hope i can continue to trust in Your words and hope that in tough times comes i will still follow after God).

I have decided to follow Jesus, I have decided to follow Jesus x2
No turning back, no turning back.

New Year

2009-01-01T20:42:00.005+08:00

Happy new year people!!!

Oh my another year has just gone by just like tat! I nv did countdown for it also!! (cox yinglin was playing ps3, by the time we switch channel its new year liao!) Anw aside from tat, 1 Jan to me is just another public holiday, i rather stay at some place to chill then gg to the countdown areas to count down. Its gonna be so PACKED there, gg home will be very difficult also. Haha last last year countdown at Esplanade is enough liao. Haah another reason its cox well 2009 im will be still in army also! LOL

Overall, i would say 2008 is pretty eventful for me thru out. I been thru quite a few good and bad moments, times where i really emo-ed abt it and times where i really thank God for protecting me. Thankfully im still holding on and serving God at the end =) The highlight of my 2008 is basically NS, where i still got 1 yr and 2 more mths before i Ord. Finally am able to get used to army lifestyle now, as compared to a few months before haha. Ministry wise, i really glad to have make alot of good friends in church, friends whom i really can count upon and rely on.. haha God also opened my eyes to the harsh reality of the world.

To those people who are ording this year, 2009 must be meaning alot to u guys yea? Haha it be my chance soon next year!! Yea guess i be celebrating my 2010 then ha.

Playing puzzle fighters LOL

Yinglin preseting me a gift

Overnite mahjiong btw tat blurry guy is
Luke, not a ghost LOL

Christmas

2008-12-28T19:23:00.003+08:00

OK Xmas is over!! Cards, presents, encouragement and even overnite fellowship, such is wat I have done these past few days. I guess to every Christians its quit normal though =X

Anw, i really thank God tat this Christmas svc, God really work cox one of my contact is able to come down for svc! Actually i nv have high hopes tat he will come, but well guess tat God works in a miraculous way then! Although he nv accept the gospel, but at least a seed is sown, yea wats left is more followupping on him liao.

Overall i find the svc is really inspiring! They really put in alot of effort for this performance man!!

Haha it feels like my christmas is on the eve rather than on the day itself man. On the eve we did alot of stuffs... After svc went to eat tau huey, then overnite dota!! ( gosh i reach home ard 3plus am sia, the next day i woke up at 1pm a record breaking late timing!!!!!! LOL)

Oh ya, btw the tertiary svc has shift place! We are using Gum Yan Medodist Church now for the next 3 weeks! Its smaller than Nexus but overall the svc is still great! Its the people who make it a success!

Whao i gonna book in soon liao, its like a dream, this past 1 week without the need to book in to camp =X
EAST WARS 1942 still have 1 more mth to go, yea so lets not give up yea?

Oh and btw i still haven finish writing my cards yet, really sorry if i haven given u yet =P I, trying hard to write for everyone!

Operation Push Button

2008-12-21T20:57:00.001+08:00

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
-James1:2-3

3 more days before Christmas start, lets jiayou in inviting ur frenz down for service!! Lets dun miss out the harvest in Christmas!!! Making use of the atmosphere to spread the love of GOD!

Dec

2008-12-14T22:45:00.003+08:00

Amen!! Im so glad that i have attended the NS ministry camp frm 6 dec to 8 dec!!! =DDD

Although i am unable to make it for the first day ( taking test), at least i am able to make it frm the second day onwards!! Haha oh and thanks guys for the warmest welcome u have given to wee keong and me-->>>> by tau pok-ing both of us in mud!!!!!!!!! (thankfully we have extra clothes to change though. he ground is really muddy, will show u guys the pics once i get it..)

I already set my camp objectives, it is to fellowship with the poly NS group, fuel my passion for God and last but not least, receive a new insight from God also. Yup, thankfully, all these objectives have been met =)))

During the second nite, one thing Jie Hui shared really leaves me an impact. He shared that, a few weeks ago, he felt tat he is totallly burn out. Ministry, school, family, time for your own.. Alot commitments is taking up his time. At one time, he complaint to God regarding his sacrifice made for Him. In the end God spoke to him which really change his thinking, He said "What do I have to do to make u love me even more?"

It really dawns onto me that u knw everytime it is us who complains to God, complaining why things happen, complaining God mistreated u etc etc. God already show His amazing Love for us by sacrificing His precious son to die on the cross!! He gives u the opportunity tio draw back to Him once again! What more can we ask of Him, our Creator, our Savior? He already given His all for us therefore as children of God, we also should sacrifice whatever we have to glorify God too!
We loved becox He first Love us!!

(more pics coming soon..)

Busy..

2008-11-09T20:20:00.002+08:00

Things needed to be done this coming month:

1. Games for the NS church camp
2. MM for the NS church camp
3. EAST WAR 1942

God i need more strength...

Oh man i just totally screwed up my psp, it cant play now!! Sianz... Hopefully it can be repaired...

EAST WAR 1942

2008-10-28T19:20:00.002+08:00

E- evangelism
A- attractiveness
S- seek God
T- train up disciples

WAR- walk across room policy

1942- by end Jan hit 42!

EAST WAR 1942 ---------->>>>> OUR MID TERM VISION FOR THE EAST DISTRICT!!

tat is our new vision/ goal for this till end January. Its a huge vision, it is reachable at the same time, need faith for it to be realize...

Ytd my shepherd have a chat with me after men conference. He shared to me regarding following God's direction even though u may not know where it will leads you to. Cox to be honest, i really dunno if im able to give myself for this vision though. Personally i dun feel prepared at all!! Such is the state of my mind at that point of time.. I guess its a normal rxn then, since at the same time, we also have to rely on God's grace to fulfill it.

Hmmm i need time to think abt it.......

1 Corinthian13:4-7 "4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

Hari Raya

2008-10-01T19:39:00.004+08:00

Happy Hari Raya people!! Lol no im not a muslim but im celebrating this day becox its a public holiday which means i can book out!! =P

Just yesterday, my unit went for some NE trip. Overall the trip is quite interesting i admit, i didn't such war museum existed in Spore until now! We went mout faber, labradoe park and lastly bukit chandu. The museum at bukit chadu really leaves me a huge impression, the museum really display the place very well. Then there this audio mv inside the museum which is very very cool! Its super high tech and u can sort of feel yourself at the scene, feel the destruction, the bombings etc. At some point i really feel emotions welling up in me, feeling sad for those tat who have die in this tragedy. "Death before dishonour", those are the words which one of the war hero(i forget his name) said before he died. I really admired his heart fighting spirits, to protect the land, to protect his love ones.

Haha it reminds me of my childhood dreams though, when i grew up i wanna be a guy who can protect his family and love ones. To protect those whom u love at any cost...

Late at night, jie xun, wee keong, luke, jon lim and samuel and I went to cineplex to PLAY CITADEL(LOL). Actually we were planning to watch movies de, but sadly the timing not good. We need to catch the last train home! Yup but playing citadel its fun though haha. Kinda hook on it. And really sorry Luke, tat u didn't play much after u rush down from chomp chomp. Will make up to u somehow de. Really thank God for this brother who always bring fun and joy to the group ha. Happy Birthday LUke!

God's amazing grace

2008-09-21T19:56:00.002+08:00

AMEN God is GREAT!!! =D

Haha I really thank God for helping me through the last field camp. Im so close to signing dunno how many extras la! 3 incidents, and i manage to slip thru all 3 unscathed. Really thank God. Haha will share to u guys more when we meet.

currently hook onto the song : This Is Our God

Bday Celebration

2008-08-31T19:39:00.003+08:00

Yea thank God for my cg for celebrating my birthday today, even though my bday is next wed. Haha today for cg me and my cg mates we went around places to places, looking for places significant to me, and video interview me. LOL met quite a few random ppl though on the journey. Am really touched by their efforts put in to make it special =)

Hmm as for this whole week, its been quite xiong for me. Have 2 SOC test, but sadly i failed both. Oh well at least i tried my best for the last one.. Gonna have rt for the time being liao, which means my sat morning will be BURNED! Next week ippt test le, gonna commit into God's hands liao, cox i really am not confident to clinch a silver.

Alrights gonna pack my stuffs liao, prepare for book in. 3 more weeks before my course ends! Persevere on!! Wont be back until next saturday then. Bye!

2008-08-11T00:45:00.001+08:00

"Well, I don't know what will happen now. We've got some difficult days ahead. But it doesn't matter with me now. Because I've been to the mountaintop. And I don't mind. Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over. And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people will get to the promised land. And I'm happy, tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord." - Martin Luther King Jr

2008-08-01T23:48:00.003+08:00

Just a few days ago, the posting for my company came out. I will be staying on as a bridge engineer. Some of my friends however will be posted out. To be honest I feel kind of "she be de" that they have left, cox quite a few of my good friends have left!

Today, during the wild wild wet event, i really spend an enjoyable time with them, my good friends. Haha its my first time to wild wild wet, its enjoyable. But seriously i dun think i be going a second time though, its tooo ex. I went there for free today tats why. Haha met kitson, ken han and yee wee there also, was quite surprise to see them. The world is so small sia! Thru out the day, me, jin heuy, terrence, desmond and shu ming been going around trying out the games. ( haha shu ming been screaming alot thru out LOL).

After the anniversary, went to e hub to walk walk. Finally im able to go there! Been passing that shopping center during my stay in tekong, but sadly no chance to visit it. Haha tat place really makes me feel tat im cut out frm the rest of the world though =X Quite alot of nice shops around oh and the chocfondule( nt sure of the spelling =P) shop is super nice! Considering im a choc addict, i bought the fruit chocolate and it really taste heavenly! haha

Its been nice hanging out with u guys man! Even though u all transferred to boat coy but still take care! Lets keep in contact and cya again!

Sacrifice

2008-07-27T20:01:00.004+08:00

Thank God i am able to go for the extra mile for my friend today! It is tiring BUT... its better to give than to receive =D

And also thanks! Xiao Han Yang, the porriage u cooked is pretty nice! Thanks for the warmth welcome!

Emotion running wild

2008-07-24T23:15:00.004+08:00

Just recently, i notice that i have indulged in self-pitiness. Been thinking alot and emo-ing alot about many things- my camp, my bunk mates, the tough trainings and the tekang session just to name a few. Emoing about why and what am i doing here and why have i done to deserve that.

After saturday's teaching, it really hit on me hard that by having tat kind of mentality IT ONLY WORSEN YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD! It will also destroy the aim in which God placed u there! Instead of keep blaming God that why He puts you here and such, WHY NOT have faith in Him that His plan is the best one for u? A strong man of God wont let his emotions to control him! The world says that positive thinking is the best way to live, as a Christian all the more we should be positive because somemore we have God we backs us up when we fall!!

Although i maybe the only Christian in my coy, tat does not mean i cant do anything to change that! One person can make a difference too! I need to take ownership and be active, instead of sitting around and emoing, which doesn't serves to expand His kingdom..

Hopefully this conviction that i have wont be a short term but a long term.

Haha if i emoed again, pls remind me LOL.

"The kingdom of heaven has been forcefully advancing, and forceful men lay hold of it."

Tired...

2008-07-02T01:28:00.004+08:00

Omg i just reach home after like a long day today. After finishing my duty jiu rush home le.. SUPER tiring really... So tired that i seriously consider straight after reach home then lie on my soft bed liao. Thank God that i am able to reach home before 1am lol.

Haha quite alot of interesting things happen but paiseh not able to share them.

Nitez guys (yawns)

Leaving soon

2008-06-22T23:34:00.002+08:00

LOL in a few hours time more i be leaving my civi life once more. Going to protect the nation by serving as a BRIDGE ENGINEER!!

Omg, i totally dunno what is tat seriously. Been hearing alot of stories about it though. Some say quite tough while some say its quite slack. Guess i wouldn't know unless i experience it myself then.

The day when i receive my posting i was quite emo-ed abt it lol. Cox its like im gonna be the only person ended in tat vocation from my platoon! So far, from what i know, none of my friends are posted there, just me alone -.-" Most of my friends are either going to spec or some other units. Which leaves me the only hope people in my vocation.

After chatting with my leaders regarding this (thanks Jie Hui and Jun Liang) , i guess its really God's plan. I though abt it thru, i mean like 70 to 80% of the people ended up as specs, why am i not 1 of them? Somemore why am i in this vocation and not others with my friends? Yea pondered alot on this issue, it really dawn on to me tat it really got to be God's plan. Probably there are things that God wanted me to accomplished over there, therefore He have chosen me. It makes me scared and excited at the same time at the though of it. Whoa i really prayed that I will have the faith, to believe His best plans for me and able to fulfill it. "For the best is yet to be.."

Im gonna cling onto this verse: Jeremiah 29:11-14

POP

2008-06-16T22:04:00.004+08:00

Orion Company platoon 4
( lol can spot me??)

FINALLY the day HAS COME!! POP!! =D

The day that i have been waiting for has finally came. Everyday during camp i really hope that this day will come soon, haha but not as much as ORD though lol.

While feeling excited at the same time a tinge of sadness follows.. Yea guess i'm gonna miss alot of things from bmt. Haha i definitely miss the people tat makes my life in bmt so fun and exciting though. Platoon 4 u guys rox!! Plus our section commanders too, all whom impacted us one way or another. They are a nice bunch of ppl to add it on.

The last days in bmt is especially high! Cameo cream, prickly heat powder and shaving cream, bombs all are flying everywhere, aiming at those unaware pedestrians. Lol i one of the victim of this pranks also. But i pity the commanders more though =X

Thru out this bmt, it really teaches me to treasure the time spent with my families and friends. Time is just so limited. Haha now having block leaves, 2 weeks of breaks, ironically now i dunno how to spend my time.

The time that we shared, the bonds that have made, the shit that we have been thru, the unreasonable things that we have done, all this will never be forgotten... Farewell Orion 4!

Songs

2008-05-04T14:12:00.003+08:00

this is a song which really touch my heart, just meditate on the lyrics and its really comforting

Who am I : by Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

Book Out!

2008-04-26T23:11:00.003+08:00

Whooo hoooooo!!! Back to civilian life!!!!!! Home is really the best place to be, now i am able to realise that.

Its really been an experience these past few weeks, haha i have survived! lol. Hmm due to some problems in my handphone, i am unable to reply all the msges the people have sent me. Sorry if i never reply but thanks for all ur care and concerns though! Really appreciated it =D

Went to bridge road and service today. Also to catch up with some of my friends from church, whao somethings will never change man =P lol i shan't comment on my appearance though.

In less than 24 hours time i be leaving spore once again, but for now, just wanna enjoy my last day at home.

Going NS

2008-04-08T17:54:00.003+08:00

Today is the last day of civilian life im having now. Haha to be honest i feel quite scared and quite excited at the moment. I guess its normal to have this kind of reaction ba, alot of others felt that way too.

I really thank God for opportunities to hang out with my friends before going in during the past 1 week or so =) Its really been enjoying to see them! Haha and have alot of fun too!!

Heard alot of stories and experiences about NS life these few days. Well to be honest its hard to judge whether or not i will enjoy it unless i experience it myself =/ Haha but one thing for sure though is that it will either make or break my faith. Will I compromise the word of God for the sake of something else? Am i able to stand firm in a worldly environment? Haha of course at the end of the day i hope i can pass this test.

Well its gonna be my last post before army life kicks in. Yup cya all again in 2.5 weeks then! =) Gosh by that time i be BALD!! LOL!

Counting down now...

NS ministry

2008-04-06T21:56:00.002+08:00

Finally the day is here... The day where i officially went to the tertiary service in the NS cg haha. Lol was feeling weird that Saturday after noon i have nothing on!!! Sadly the first day of svc i'm actually late for it =X Anw the tertiary service is really an eye opener, alot of things is quite different from youth ministry. Its abit of culture shock to be honest. Oh well but God is the same no matter what. Haha i need sometime to adapt myself though.

The NS ministry is very fun i would say. Have that feeling after going for the NS vision night and my first cg of NS. Haha seeing how the brothers crap with each other and having fun together really shows out the atmosphere in NS ministry. Yea although still have alot of ppl i do not know yet, yup it takes time but i'll do my best to bond with them!

After going through the vision night and cg, i really feel convicted about serving God even in NS. Knowing that it is going to advance the kingdom of God really pushes me to go do it. To spread the Love of God to my camp and be a salt and light! To become a strong man of God! Yea i am going to miss my 2 years in NS le, i dun wanna miss my 2 years of spiritual life also!

Yea hopefully this conviction is not just a feeling, i pray that it can last me throughout my days in NS. I pray that i really can anchor my life on the word of God deeply..

"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving." Colossians 3:23-24

"Now I want you to know, brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel. As a result, it has become clear throughout the whole palace guard and to everyone else that I am in chains for Christ." Philipians 1:12-13

Prayer

2008-04-04T20:27:00.002+08:00

Been listening to "The Stand" It really speaks to my heart in terms of making a stand for God.

"So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours "

Dear Jesus,
To be honest part of my heart is really scared about this major change in my life, in terms of ministry and my life. Im scared cox i totally have no idea of what to expect frm there! Plus also how can i give to my new ministry too.. Lord help me, empower me and grant me the courage to make a stand for you in this new phase of my life. I pray that Father, i can really grow myself in NS, standing firm in ur words and not afraid to spread your love to the non believers. Watever temptations that may arise help me to overcome them! Help me to become the person You want me to be, help me to fulfill the plans You have for me! I wanna surrender my life to you, not out of obligation, not out of fear but out of love for You. God, reassure me that You are with me in this journey as i desire You more and more. Really a day at Yourcourt is so much better than thousand days spend without You. I have make this choice to step firm in Your words, help me to be firm in Your words!
Lastly i pray that Lord, u can help me to adapt myself to the new unit, new ministry and a new environment. Its a new beginning, i gonna do my best to give myself to the cg. I pray that i can really bond with my cg too!

Yea Jesus, thanks for listening to my ramblings and i really want to commit all of this into Your hands. Let Your will and not mine be done.

In Jesus name i prayed,
Amen

Fellowship

2008-04-04T19:53:00.003+08:00

Haha these 2 days have been great honestly. Been going out with my church friends to fellowship with them.

Wednesday me, Linus, Darren, Shawn, Wee Keong and Jason went out together! The plan is to meet at cineleisure at 630pm, but due to the heavy rain everyone is late! But really thank God tat Jason and Shawn is able to come in the end! Went to eat kfc and haha k im officially sick of cheese fries now. Its just to cheesy for me to take it sia. Haha shawn is as crappy as usual, entertaining us + irritating us.( haha if u insist! lol) Jason seems to enjoy our company too which is great! After that we went to watch Untraceable which is well ok? Haha i dun wanna spoilt the whole show though, the plot is interesting really, not really cliche but the ending is not really satisfactory though. Haha overall really enjoyed this fellowship with them, can really imagine wats life gonna be like with all of them in NS =D Jiayou and lets keep one another accountable no matter what we went thru in NS!

Haha today hang out with Yihui, Wee Keong and Limin for lunch. K surprisingly im the earliest to reach there!! LOL the rest have something on tat is why late. Yihui was really late to meet us becox she need to settle some stuffs in the morning. Yea this outing is pretty random to be honest haha. K la me, wee keong and limin have our fun too, swuaning limin pung sehing us to irritate her, window shopping j8, playing daytona and sharings! Yihui finally joined us in the end and we have our lunch (lol my stomach is grumbling like mad cox i nv eat anything ever since i woke up!). K after lunch we went to digest ourselves with yougart treated by Kiwi, thank God for u! Yihui has to leave after that, due to shepherding, the 3 of us we walk around bishan stuffing ourselves with random food - ice cream, bubble tea ( lol now i VERY full and stomach feels super weird!) and going random places LOL. Basically we want to kill time la nothing to do.
Haha but overall this trip is indeed great and fruitful, i really enjoyed it alot haha. Thank God for u all for NOT pung sehing haha =D

After parting ways i went to buy my googles in AMK. OMG it cost 26 bucks for 1 GOOGLE!!!??? Urgh if not for NS i dun think i wanna buy it also sianz.

Walking home, i reflect myself on alot of things. I will miss these journey of walking home cox i always make use this time to reflect upon my life haha. New ministry, NS, NYSR and tons off other random stuffs which i dunno how to put into words. Yea its gonna be a new journey for me, a new phase and a new beginning, no time for emoing le so gotta move on! Yea!

1 more week

2008-04-02T12:32:00.002+08:00

1 more week to conscription le, time really flies...

Haha having mixed reaction towards this though. Im scared and excited at the same time! Scared because NS is either gonna break me or make me! Excited because it sounds quite fun after hearing their experience in Tekong.

I really pray that God will use me GREATLY in NS too! May I be a salt and light in my camp! Yea all i hope is probably i be able to mix well with my bunk mates, hmmm and also someone who can talk to over there.

k training for NS liao...

Final Weeks

2008-03-31T02:02:00.010+08:00

The photos they have made for us!

the Ny CG!!
Mahjiong session at khakit bukit

At the jap restaurant

This whole week has been a bittersweet feeling to me. Finally the day has come, for me to transferred to the NS ministry.

Didn't thought of it that much, but now it just came like a sudden wind. Up till now i still cannot believe that im here, ending my youth ministry period le.

JC ministry is has been quite memorable to me. Its the place where i make a commitment to serve God. From NEE2 to the NYSR now, its been a 1 year plus journey. A journey where lives are shared and new bonds are made.

I certainly miss you all my dear cg mates! Yihui, Kat, Yanyu, Sikuan, Mich, Zhao Peng, Zhen Zhi, Grace, Faith, Huiqi, Qinning, Peu, Tim, Jiajia, Ona, Amanda. Yup i will miss you guys loads!

The last svc in youth is indeed very touching. Especially the part where Shirley offers to pray for the transfers. I was like gosh this is the end of my stay in youth ministry le. I was feeling at a lost to be honest, like "is this it? thats how its gonna end?" Seeing my cg mates placin thier hands on me to pray for me, whao at the moment memories of times spendin with them just flashed thru my mind. Its really very touching indeed.

Really thanks for the farewell yesterday! Haha the japanese restaurant is very expensive. Thank God for u all for treating us to a meal. It meant alot to us really, seeing the heart of u guys. Its a fun time playing reversi, old maids, snap jack, tai di also =D Thanks for the cards, poems and the wall photos too! I am sincerely touch by the efforts u all have made.

The chat with my shepherd is really nice too. Of NS ministry and also my future. To be honest im quite scared of wat to expect from there. Would i influence people or would i get influenced? God i need reassurances that u be with me no matter what happens. But still thank God for my shepherd man! If not for ur effort to grow me, there won't be a Shem now. Yups

After dinner at the japanese restaurant, we went to swensen to savor on the deliciously earthquakes. HAha thanks Kat for the leaving gifts u have for us! Have a wonderful time of fellowshipping also. Seeing that Sikuan is enjoying himself with the rest of the cg members, my heart feels at rest also. Sheep its really nice to have know you, u are a really a blessing to me, in a way or another.

The stayover at Khakit Bukit is enjoyable also. Have a times of sharing and talking. Its really nice to have a heart to heart sharing between cg mates. Whao i will miss all of u man!!

Also i miss the unit JCNEA also too the people there whom i have help me directly or indirectly. jon tay, debbie, gavin, poh choon, jon quek , liting, SIA, zhi wei, hsiaoen, limin and xingyi.

Yea dunno how to end off but still wanna wish u all all the best in the respectives schools! Jiayou in completing cg08!!

Hmmm this coming week gonna spend time with my new cg members le. Hope be able to apply the things what Shirley and Raph have shared. Nitez

Universitiy application

2008-03-27T23:45:00.004+08:00

Ok.... I shouldn't have wait till now to apply for university. Gosh now then i realize the complexity in the application...

Alright i must say the essay part is really a killer. LOL!! I HATE ESSAYS!!

Thank God that the payment for NUS is made in time. Phewwww

Now for NTU le sianzzz

3 more days counting down

Easter Day

2008-03-22T23:57:00.003+08:00

Alright i just wanna say that Easter service was quite disappointing in a sense. I mean tat the conversion rate is quite disappointing, the service is awesome though!! It really touched my heart and make me teared!!

Today only we have Chuan Ren and Pin Li visiting us for svc. Lol i we nt thru a rollercoaster ride experience yesterday. At the start i was over in cloud nine tat 2 contacts are coming from my side!!! Gosh little did i know that around 11 plus, they suddenly tell me they cannot come due to something on!!! Wah, at that point of time really dampers my mood sia. Really feels like shouting to God" Urgh why is this happening????" I really feels like dropping off from the highest point. Lol i been sacrificing quite alot for this. Try my best not to work this week, mass sending msg and call using my phone to talk to contacts (now my handphone bill exploding le =X). Yea but i guess its all God's timing la..

Alrights fast forward to the service. Its really good i find, the teachings and the special stuffs added to it. Wat is not good is tat im feeling quite tired la. Trying my best to keep myself awake also. I manage to speak to Chuan Ren and regarding his commitment in his own church also. He seems committed to his church though, but they are some parts still nt sure about it yet. Haha he is also attracted to the caregroup too!

I thank God for Yihui man, even though shes feeling down and discouraged also, but she still persevere on! I thank God for her as she try her best to encourage us!! Also thank God for Jon Tay, wahh his words are really inspiring la!! "when the going gets tough, the tough gets going"

Yes!!!!!! This holy discontentment is there and all of us want to see NYSR fulfilled cg08!! Watever sadness and disappointment we may have, lets settle it with God and move on!! I still got 1 more week left, i will do my best to help fulfill cg08!!

1 verse which i find really encouraging:
" Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."

Results

2008-03-16T00:26:00.004+08:00

Whao i must really thank God for my results man. I got A,C,D for h2 and E,C for h1. Its not really well done but i happy to get at least an A. Haha especially since the A for economics is really God bless. I had mental block that time during the essay writing!!

Alrights now its really the hard part, choosing a course for university! I really need a clear direction from God to help me choose a correct course. There is JUST SO MANY TO CHOOSE FROM!! Yea i wonder should i put those courses i interested first or those courses that I can go to. Gosh i need to rethink abt this..

In a lighter tone, YAY ZHAO PENG AND ZHEN ZHI CAME TO SERVICE TODAY!!!!!!! Its been quite some time since we last seen them lei. Yup even there is no converts today, but the fellowship and prayer meeting is GREAT. Alrights both of them comin for easter service!! =D

A lvls

2008-03-07T00:41:00.003+08:00

Haha paiseh haven been updating my blog for quite some time le..

Hmmm recently been busy with the surveyor job, busying with the KILLER AIRCON PROJECT!! Urghhhhh oh wells. I really thank God for being with me all this while, thru work and pioneering too! Yea i manage to complete 7 surveys now!! Its really a achievements man! Haha looks like completing till 10 is no longer a dream anymore! Haha

Gosh tml is my A lvls le. I really pray tat God, no matter wat happen, prepare my heart Lord. I pray tat thru good or bad u be by my side! I need u more than ever!!!

Psalm 91

1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. ^[a]

2 I will say ^[b] of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."

3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.

4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,

6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.

7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.

8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.

9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-

10 then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.

11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;

12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.

16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."

Love my cg

2008-02-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

Haha haven been updating in a while le, guess i shall compress my thoughts for the past dunno how many days =P

Yea, whao i am verry happy tat nowadays NY cg is getting very happening! Haha Thank God for it man! Thank God for giving us 3 new converts for this period of time. Yea its tough to handle them really, alot of follow-up section is needed. But its worth it =)

Haha i really loved my caregroup man! Gonna appl y what i have learn from the sermon! Anchor my life on God! Yea gonna jiayou for the coming ESS! Can feel the spirit flowing into all of us!

this song touch me really greatly man

I want to walk with you everyday of my life
To talk with you in the good and the strive
U are my friend, my Father for all times
nothing can keep us apart
U are the lover of my heart~~~~~~

Death

2008-01-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

I was really shock to heard tat my sec sch friends jus died of car accident not long ago. Guess this shows life is really unpredictable. One moment u are alive, the other moment u just fall dead. Even though me and him not really close, at least we played soccer and joke together before. I still feel sad for him, pass away at such a young age.. Ya life is really short come to think it... Take care David, and rest in peace..

Hmmm this really taught me to treasure your love ones though, before its too late... Life is really short, live a meaningful life...

Alrights time to move on le, better stop myself from emoing, MOVE ON SHEM!!

Shepherds

2008-01-27T01:01:00.001+08:00

Haha whao today is really a blessed day i find. WE got visitor today!! Lol lately the whole cg is mass inviting ppl down for service. In the end we got no one to come down. Even my contact i have work ever since from december tells me he is not interested )= sad. Well anyways really Thank God for giving us this visitor, Ryan, a Christian la but thinking of coming to NYJC. Haha well either way me and YiHui work on him throughout the service. Hmmm dunno much about his spiritual life though, but he seems quite open and friendly with us. Haha hope he joined us next time!

Whao next we went for the Shepherds Meet to attend the lessons. I seriously learn alot over there la! The teachings is applicable to me since i am a soon-to-be shepherd.(currently im still a follow- upper, dun wanna speculate now also) Hmmm well it certainly hits me, that i shld really place my sheep above anything else!! This is something i really got to commit God, an area i need help in.

On the way home, Jon Tay spoke to me and Timothy regarding shepherding. I agree with him also la, indeed shepherding is important as it is a main source of spiritual input into ones life also. Haha he also shared to us alot of things. Am really inspired by his sharings la. Well anyway after i learn all these, its time to put it into ACTION. I will give my best to be a RIGHTEOUS SHEPHERD. God i dun have the skills, all i have is the heart to want to serve the people, to care for them. Help me to understand this burden for Your people Lord. Break my heart for what breaks Yours! Here I am use me!!! =D

Thank God

2008-01-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

Whao suddenly feel like bloggin abt the past few days experiences that have happen to me hahas

Saturday was a amazing day! Not only did God answered the prayer of AJ, we also have amazing race!! Haha abit disappointing that Si Kuan unable to join us but nvm, at least he CAME FOR SVC =) Hmmm he seems pretty sincere abt learning more, haha hope i am able to impart to him everything i know. haha OH and SR we have a new convert, Vanessa, Hallejuha!! hope she can join us for cg tml!

Anws fast forward to amazing race whao its pretty fun. Even though its tirin but its worth it!! HAha in the end we won!!( lol although we sort of cheated since we took bus =P) Haha anw wat matters is tat we are able to bond well with the visitors and new converts!! Amen! Thank God for the game masters and the ppl for making this a success!! JCNEA will grow even BIGGER!!

Hmmm sunday was a pretty tiring day. Whoa i have half a mind to reject the job Limin offered lol, super lazy la when i wake up. Urgh anw i am short of money also, bo bian have to take liao. If nt my parents will be unhappy also if i only work for like 1 time this week?? Hmm thank you Jesus for providing me with courage and skills. Thanks for blessin me really. Workin in M hotel is nt as bad i tot it will be haha. I feel quite comfortable la working there! Even though theres no friends working with me. (Linus last min nt coming) . The best is tat i got my pay on that day itself! Haha at least $36 enable me to survive for a few days. I really thank God la, for providin me with this job when i needed money the most. Hopefully my salary can come soon, need to wait until mid Feb sianz.

A New Beginning

2008-01-18T01:19:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord,

Thank you Lord for giving us this new believer. He is really sincere and kind. Although in the past, its partly due to me that my sheep, Gao Yu, backslided. I wont let the past haunt me again tats for sure. I teach him to the best that i could! Oh Lord Jesus, watever that i lacked, pls empower me, provide me, teach me so i wont be inadequate! Thank you Lord, for your comfort and your amazing Love.

in Jesus name i pray
Amen

Love Language

2008-01-16T01:48:00.001+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Acts of Service:		6
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		5
Receiving Gifts:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

hmmmm jus some survey tat i did. Haha quite zhun though, guess thats my love language =P
Try it out, its quite real.

A realisation

2008-01-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

Romans 6:12-14 "11In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus. 12Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires. 13Do not offer the parts of your body to sin, as instruments of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God, as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer the parts of your body to him as instruments of righteousness. 14For sin shall not be your master, because you are not under law, but under grace."

God thx for these reminder u gave me. I know myself tat there are some parts in my life, i am still sinning against u. Forgive me Jesus, i am really sorry. Sorry for continuous sinning against u... Lord, I wanna offer my life, my everything to u. To be used for ur kingdom come and for u alone. Thx for reminding me tat ur grace has saves me frm sins. Thanks you Jesus, for all u have done. Lord, strengthen me my mind, my soul and my heart, so that i will be more aware of the things i doing.

Amen

Whao suffered a huge blow today, the most responsive contacts i have is a Christian!! Wha that kind of feeling, is really hard to describe. A sense of disappointment and a sense of happiness. Disappointed as i work on him for quite some time, then happy cox there is OTHER CHRISTIAN IN NY!! =)

Lol move on move on! Haha anw tml will be headin down to contacts gathering le. God pls bless us with more responsive guys contacts!!

Introducing.... ME!

2008-01-13T22:08:00.000+08:00

Helloz this is my first blog and hopefully i can be faithful in keeping this blog alive =X

Haha this blog shall hold my thoughts and my experience, a place where i can express myself out. Feel free to comment if u wan hahas.